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- Apr 27
- United States
- Deviant for 16 years
- She / Her
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Current Residence: A hicktown
Favourite genre of music: Punk, heavy rock, or metal
Favourite style of art: digital
MP3 player of choice: my Zune
Wallpaper of choice: anything with either My Chemical Romance. Motley Crue, and A7X
Favourite cartoon character: The Angry Beavers, Invader Zim, and Squee
Personal Quote: The brightest stars in the sky are the souls of those you loved the most.
Favourite genre of music: Punk, heavy rock, or metal
Favourite style of art: digital
MP3 player of choice: my Zune
Wallpaper of choice: anything with either My Chemical Romance. Motley Crue, and A7X
Favourite cartoon character: The Angry Beavers, Invader Zim, and Squee
Personal Quote: The brightest stars in the sky are the souls of those you loved the most.
Favourite Visual Artist
Gerard Way
Favourite Movies
Across The Universe, The Hills Have Eyes, Saw I-IX, Texas Chainsaw Masacre, 21, The Condemned, Rent
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Motley Crue, Sixx A.M., Avenged Sevenfold, My Chemical Romance, Panic At The Disco, and Iron Maiden
Favourite Writers
Anything good I get my hands on
Favourite Games
Trauma Center
Favourite Gaming Platform
X Box
Tools of the Trade
Whatever I have on me. A napkin. A scrap of paper. A candy wrapper.
Other Interests
Music, photography, writing, Los Angeles, the '80s
I Think I'm In Love
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Alright so...the title of my journal is exactly how I feel right now. I should probably explain what's led up to this since I haven't really posted any journals as of late, so here goes.
Back when I started my job in July, I met this guy named Cesar. Even back then, I kind of found myself drawn to him...but strangely, not in the ways that I am now. He was more interesting to spend time around since he was kind of...strange? Strange in a good way, though. He's got all sorts of very creative, interesting ideas about the world. He thinks God is an alien and he believes in elves. And he believes in all sorts of stuff like that, too. And that was
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I Got A B In Life
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[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ] You have your own room.
[x]You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an mp3 player/ipod/discman.
[ ] Your parents are still married.
[x] You love your family.
[x] There is a pool/spa in your backyard.
T 0 T A L: 5
[x] You dress the way you want to.
[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[x] You have never been beaten up.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to the movies.
T 0 T A L: 12
[ ] You have over 500 friend
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Back from the dead...
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I think this is the longest amount of time I've gone without writing a journal on DeviantART, and for the simple fact that I'm bored and have nothing better to do right now, I'm going to right a fairly long one to let my friends who are active on this site know what's been going on and why I haven't been as active here as I was in the past. Hopefully that will be changing in the future, but I can't say for sure since there's a lot of stuff going on, which I'll explain in the rest of my journal.
In March, my great-grandmother died. I believe I wrote a journal about that, but I can't remember if I did or not. It was very hard for me to get thr
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on Pole Art - Scorpio: 
Hey, I know you're most likely really busy and stuff, but today has just been kind of a weird one for me and I think you're probably the one who knows best what I'm talking about, though in truth I don't even know myself. But a number of times today I very nearly broke down but caught myself and then I was making coffee alone in my kitchen, singing to myself, when I just lost it. I keep wishing to myself that it was this time LAST year - but then, if it was, what good would that do? I'd never be able to help anything. It would just hurt me more, knowing I could do nothing to prevent it - I mean, even if I made it to Cali, who the hell would listen to me? I'm not making sense. But, I just miss you and hope you're okay and have a very good New Year and had a good Christmas and everything. Love you, FoREVer 
xoxo
xoxo
I know how you feel. I have felt the same for the last several hours. It's not the 28th over here yet, but it's three hours, and I just...I feel like an empty black hole, you know? I feel like there's a part missing. And I can't find it, and it hurts. That probably doesn't make sense. Or if it does make sense, you probably think I'm crazy or something. The last few hours have been like deja vu for me. I keep thinking back to this time last year; about how he didn't know he had less than twenty-four hours left, and it just...it hurts. It hurts so fucking much and...I don't know why it hurts like this. It's not normal, is it? At least I know I have you and my other A7X friends to talk to and lean on. I feel like complete crap right now. I think I'm going to try and write now. It always makes me feel better.
I have felt the same for the last several hours. It's not the 28th over here yet, but it's three hours, and I just...I feel like an empty black hole, you know? I feel like there's a part missing. And I can't find it, and it hurts. That probably doesn't make sense. Or if it does make sense, you probably think I'm crazy or something. The last few hours have been like deja vu for me. I keep thinking back to this time last year; about how he didn't know he had less than twenty-four hours left, and it just...it hurts. It hurts so fucking much and...I don't know why it hurts like this. It's not normal, is it? At least I know I have you and my other A7X friends to talk to and lean on. I feel like complete crap right now. I think I'm going to try and write now. It always makes me feel better. It makes sense, it makes perfect sense to me and you are not crazy or if you are, then I must be too but it's okay 
I'm here and I always will be. It's not normal, but the fact he's gone isn't because it shouldn't have happened! Nothing that I can do takes my mind off it and then if I ever I do manage to stop thinking about him, I feel really guilty for doing so. I've got Nightmare queued on repeat on Youtube to make it the most played song for him. My friend Julie, who I met at A7X and have become so incredibly close to ever since and I were talking last night and had planned to meet up today (she lives in Scotland, like 3/4 hours from me) only the stupid weather has meant we can't and she asked what my abreviated plans were for today and then we both just said Mope at the exact same time. It's pathetic I know, but I don't know what else to do. I do think though, that if Matt Sanders can get out of bed every morning along with Zacky and Brian and Johnny and they can go and do what they do with such pride and love then I can carry on too. I respect those guys so goddamn much for that. xoxoI have so much respect for them, too. It's really amazing how they've picked themselves up after everything crashed down. It's just...unbelievable. I can't believe he's gone. It's like, there's days when I just kind of pass through the day without thinking 'oh, Jimmy's gone,' but then the next day, it'll hit me that he really is, and it's like finding out for the first time again. I cried myself to sleep last night, I was so upset about it. And it's just...I can't even comprehend the words right now. Depressing. Sad. And on top of that, one of my stories got stolen on Mibba, so I have to deal with a plagiarist while I'm in the middle of all this feeling depressed. Just my luck, right?
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Thanks for the fav 
Thank you